Old tricks on a jaded heart
Like to pretend I can keep them apart
But being tough never meant that much to me
I’m questioning everything I believe
Now that I’m all I never wanted to be
Yeah I just can’t live with this hypocrisy

Cos I was kidding myself
Man, I had it bad
Losing myself thinking this was the was the best thing I ever had

Because there’s good intensions and fatal trends
When all I wanted was to be your friend
Yeah being right never meant anything to me
Now I can’t stand to see you laugh
‘Cos happiness seems like a thing of the past to me
I’m six feet under but I can’t rest and there’s no peace

Cos I was kidding myself
Man, I had it bad
Losing myself thinking this was the was the best thing I ever had
Well I’ve been dying for something
But my pulse is beating and I’ve gotta live again
I gotta live again

Now there’s a stubborn nature and a open heart
Try as I did I couldn’t keep them apart
Yeah being real always meant too much to me
Now I’m remembering everything I believe
And there’s a light that I’m starting to see
‘Cos I woke up this morning and I wanted to be me

Cos I was kidding myself
Man, I had it bad
Losing myself thinking this was the was the best thing I ever had
Well I’ve been dying for something
But my pulse is beating and I’ve gotta live again
Said my pulse is beating and I’ve gotta live again

Recorded and mixed by Greg Jard at Time Flew Studios, Byron Bay
Mastered by Phil Wilson
Written and arranged by Hanny J
Vocals, guitar and bass – Hanny J
Drums – Jake Laderman
Cello – Lucy Waldron